Saturday, July 24th, 2004
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3:24 pm - would say its just bad luck..........
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all of this is self induced.
one thing after another. no money for this. gotta pay that. gotta fix this. i owe them this. they want this. i dont have it. something else broke. it was my fault. where do i get it from? a;slkdjfa;sdlkjfas;d so frustrating sometimes.
i'm glad i have a break from schoool comming up. im gonna stay w/ my mom for a week or so. shes lonely and im fucked up. so it should work out.
this makes me sound lke a drug addict or something. but its nothing like that. just not good w/ the scrilla. or w/ driving. haha i shouldnt drive ever. i wish i could ride my bike everywhere. but i dont think i can carry all my hair shit on my bike. haha so thats not gonna work.
atleast its not all negetives. although theres alot.
-. no money. fucked up BRAND NEW car. lots of bills. too many. fucking up at work. always being tired. not eating well. eating too much of the not good stuff. no money to sign up for school. lost my id. oweing people i cant pay. haveing a messy house w/ no time to clean it. a messy car with no time for that either. hot house w/ a shitty air conditioner. out of shape. and sadly enough too much partying....
+. i have good friends. a good job. doing good in school. gotta the highest grade on the final. met a new nelson. we hang out everyday almost. i really like him. it seems to be mutual. hopefully i will get a student loan.
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Sunday, July 4th, 2004
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8:35 pm - she dances it all away
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i think ive found a match........and not the kind you light.
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Wednesday, June 30th, 2004
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3:01 pm - i dont want another drink or fight....i want lover..
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got in another fight.
i have pink hair today. i think ill change it back soon. i dont like it.
ive been getting my self into trouble w/ some people. but i think its for the right reason. a certain someone.
i have someone obsessed w/ me. free gifts though. but i really shouldnt be taking them. hes kinda weird.
toi is good.
fusion tonight vertigos tomorrow. goldfingers friday. vertigos sat. 82 sun. who wants to go w/ me? sadly its my normal weekly schedual.
i think i can say that im over a certain ex boyfriend who seems to be more heartless than i thought. f him.
thats it
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Monday, June 14th, 2004
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4:26 pm - whisperings sweet nothings...
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anyway...i am re-inventing myself. starting now. or actually about 5 hours ago. ive lost things. i gotta go find them.....
reorganize.
blah.
i feel good today. well my body does. my mind is something else...thats gonna be alittle harder to fix.
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Wednesday, June 2nd, 2004
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9:46 pm - ....
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Tuesday, June 1st, 2004
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12:26 am - see you spacecowboy....
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12.7.
Echoandthebunnymen.
morrisey.
franz ferdinand.
modest mouse.
le tigre.
c.d.
franzf.
m.m.
RUBEN!
y.y.y's.
blonde/benetar
prince
went to countdown last night. it was alot of fun. saw the cooler kids. they were really good. and fun. and the girl is amazing. she should be on the cover of everything.
hopefully tiffany will be visiting me at prince on thursday. "wheres my presents"
people were dissapointing today. although i dont know why i let anyone get to me.
im slowly getting my shit straightened out. i figured to go slow. because when i try to do everything at once. i get frustrated and yeah whatever......
maybe i will be moving to la soon. if my friend gets her job out there.
i take clients tomorrow at school. so people come visit. i have two seeing me tomorrow. should go well hopefully.
thats it. i hate you all
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Tuesday, May 25th, 2004
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9:41 pm - ....
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got my teeth done today. was that bad. the actual process of getting them removed was fun. i kept going in n out. and it seemed like 5 minutes. i wasa told that once i came back up the guy said something to me and i flipped him off. sounds accurate enough.
i have stitches though. never had those before. its kinda gross.
my mommy bought me miso soup and return of the king. its so fucking good. best movie ever.
june 3rd suckas. im going to fucking prince.
hopefully my money situation will be solved soon. if anyone would like to make donations. go right ahead.
and...just so everyone knows. nelson is a fucking shit hole. worst friend ive ever had
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Thursday, May 20th, 2004
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2:01 am - shes hoping....
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Monday, May 10th, 2004
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11:33 pm - see you space cowboy
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by friday i will:
have a clean house.
have a clean car.
have all clean clothes.
be fully rested.
possibly in NY.
alittle less broke.
a 6.
hopefully happy.
not working.
almost done w/ the stupid part of school.
not be bleeding
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Thursday, April 22nd, 2004
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3:19 pm - ....
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Im partially blonde today. well mainly. although its still kinda yellow. but its cool.
im kinda tired.
2am phone calls arent cool. im not too keen on them. even if it is from someone i want to hear from. thats just not the right time. pisses me off kinda.
and i think one of my new friends dont like me. haha i guess they arent my friend. i get the feeling it has to do w/ the attention. i dont know. i could just be paranoid.
gotta look into plane tickets for new york.
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Tuesday, April 13th, 2004
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10:31 pm - see you space cowboy....
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wed. branding iron w/ jen. didnt get in. went to hibrow.
thur. vertigos w/ about ten other girls from school. great night.
fri. stephs house, hung out w/ her ryan and josh. was decent.
sat. woke up went riding. then to vertigos again w/ only two other girls. was good also.
sun. went to 82 for the first time. was pretty alright. too much sex and coke in the air for me. but was cool. saw some kids. and met some kids.
mon. hung out w/ kid that i did meet. hes alright.
tue. woke up feeling like shit from mon. started period. had school. nothing good.
tomorrow...who knows.
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Monday, April 5th, 2004
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12:19 pm - ....
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are you, or are you not.
if you are any of these things, you are not my friend.
-Inconsiderate
-Selfish
-Superficial
-Nice to me only when your friends arent around
-Will talk to me until someone cooler comes along
-Use me. for anything.
-Only talk to me when you want something.
-Are two faced, not only to me but to others.
-show no appreciation for friendship
the list could go on. but if you answer yes to any of the above. you are not my friend.
If you are my friend. you will know it. especially now...
i will not waste my time with shitty people anymore. so if you dont hear from me anytime in the future. it could be because i hate you. or just dont care enough to call you. either that. or i lost your phone number. haha
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Saturday, April 3rd, 2004
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3:04 am
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why did all my friends suck so bad tonight. i fucking hate you. well not all of you. but i give up on shitty people. maybe i deserve it for being shitty myself. but whatever. fuck you
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Thursday, April 1st, 2004
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1:14 pm - see you space cowboy....
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i must start off by saying last nights adult swim was so funny!. mustaches every where! if you didnt see it. you missed out.
last night was insane!. so much fun. first...ive had more bottles than ive had hours of sleep or food to eat. its really bad. but ive had the best time.
in class we were being so rowdy. it was the funnest day in class ive ever had. minus the state board sets we had to do.
after about 10-15 girls from class w/ their friends and i showed up to elvies. we ruled the place. hands down. carlos was there by himself?? but we hung out. jen, vanessa, joe, mark, mateo, carlos, shaun, and some others came back to myhouse after. that was fun also. minus mateo being a fucking jerk face. i wanna fight him. and im mentioning these names as if anyone knows them. but i can pretend. so mateo was bieng stupid. wouldnt even let me cut his hair. i think hes into boys. arggg i wanna fight him bad.
lately ive been meeting nothing but jerk off guys. not to mention most of them are friends w/ my brother. yet they are still jerks. blahhhhhhh oh well.
bane tomorrow!!!!! and sat!!! cant wait. its gonna be awesome.
i feel like im in trouble some how? but i dont know what i did. either w/ work. or something. i dunno but i cant figure it out.
hopefully im hanging out w/ lee tonight. hes the one good dude ive been talking to lately. hes nice. even though i should spend a night just sleeping or taking care of stuff. but noooooo. haha
now im just rambling. and this afi song is awesome.
p.s. fuck you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Wednesday, March 24th, 2004
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11:07 pm - see you space cowboy..
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where are all the decent people in the world? or are there any????? and if so. why arent they meeting me.
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Monday, March 22nd, 2004
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3:46 pm
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so i realized im trying to fill a void. w/ anyone i can. so some people look more appealing than others. even if at another time iw ould never want them as a friend. it could be that i would never have given them a chance. so maybe im just being more open-minded. that or i lowered my standards. haha plus its hard when no matter who i meet they dont compare to the one im trying to replace. although he will always be my best friend. i want a new one. that i can hang out w/ all the time....bleh. i think i always write about the same thing. which i think is good. because that means that i dont have too many things to worry about. which means...life is good. for the most part.
p.s. i missed panda puffs. and im glad i got some today.
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1:28 am
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i think the people who are hard to read are either the most interesting or the most full of shit.
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Friday, March 19th, 2004
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12:19 am - im changing the subject because justin complained.....fuck you anyway..
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Last night was a great night.
went to scoreboards. didnt buy anydrinks there because i was already drunk by the time i left.
by the end of the night i was walking around w/ no shoes on because my heels hurt like a mother fucker and i couldnt walk straight in them anymore.
i just got off the phone after a almost two hour conversation w/ someone whom i never thought in my life id be talking to on the phone. I actually really enjoyed the conversation. and i think we're having simpsons night at my hosue on sunday. and hopefully hanging out before that.
Nelson hasnt called me. and im really upset about. i dont know why. maybe hes really busy. but it still really sucks.
thats all i got.
oh p.s. i did this girls hair in class. it came out fuciking amazing. no joke.
oh..p.p.s. i got my hair cut today also. its shorter than shit. but itll grow out.
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Tuesday, March 16th, 2004
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12:05 am - see you space cowboy....
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I've been updating too much lately. but i dont care...
just got dont watching "Monster". it made me wanna fall in love. It was pretty good.
My car rubbed against a pole today. it doesnt look too pretty. i think it will come out.
I miss nelson micheal robert offley.
I Cleaned the house today. and went food shopping. I've been feeling like such a grown up now a days. its scary..
my cousin is going to beauty school. its cool but at the same time. it sucks. but atleast we can open a salon together later. itll be cool.
I need to re-evaluate who my friends are, and who arent my friends. I dont like to waste my time on people who arent. I only like to put time into people who like to put time into me.
i got a free bra and tank top today. theyre both cute. free stuff rocks.
i have to go to a class tomorrow and drive three old guys to it because none of them having a working car, or car at all. actually i onley know 2 of them are old. im hoping the third will be a hot young dude. but he most likely wont. he'll be old..and ugly. and stupid. and ill have to sit in a car, my car, with them all day. if you hear im dead by the end of the week, you k now why.
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